am looking for a shelter.for a cuople months,am single and friendly guy,I will share expenses,rent,utilities,and more,no links atached,just I need a place to sleep and be confortable
am free drugs,free deceases,no alcoholic,am moving from Wisconsin cause I want to star a new life, please email with a color letter,and I know it is not an spam thanks Mike



Location: albuquerque
it's NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercial interests




*note* apparently his other add got flagged, but i found this one, same guy, at least I hope to God/dess it is the same guy, the newer add that was gone, he had lost the sombrero...I might add that while looking to find this add, and ONLY perusing the headlines, you know, that part that makes you want to open the add, i found a 'black guy with a little dick looking for ltr' and a 'gentle widower with herpes' i am trying to imagine if this is what they use to real the women in, what do you think the disclaimer would be?

Often i find myself peeking at craigslist ads just to remind myself of the many reasons one should never ever date in new mexico, and oddly, I found the most compelling add of the evening to be that of a gentleman from wisconsin, so maybe my no dating policy should indeed canvas the entire U.S.
...of course, i felt the need to share the joy!.......

I am a guy living at wisconsin state,and I want to move to albuquerque,and I need shelter,if u don't have a problem with,I will help u in the expenses of the house,bills,rent,cooking
cleaning,am a free drugs,free deceases,no problem guy,like alchoholic or a driver crazy,just I need a place to take a rest, sleep,just a den
please emailme with the word hisp,
am not going throuhg web sites, I don't want waist my time,if u are real and want to offer me a shelter please let me know ASAP
this is my photo I am not Bead Pit

It is funny, i literally feel like a shadow of myself, i am accomplishing things, going to work, even managed to get to a gallery opening last week, promised i would take in a new painting soon, but despite all the perfectly normal interaction with the world at large, i am almost positive that none of it is actually happening to ME, I am curled up safe and sleepy somewhere else, and all this stuff keeps going on round me, and i just have not a thing to do with it...sometimes i break through long enough to feel miserable, and then, back under for me, thank you...I wonder how long this feeling will last, and if all hell will break loose, or all sanity, perhaps, when it is done?

Now that I am in a gallery officially, i am getting ready to put together what I need for taxes, stuff like that, i have already sold some prints, and if one of my paintings sells, my art will becomne an official source of income.

I can't even say how much this excites me, or how nervous it makes me either! the hard part has already been broken down into several easy steps for me by a good friend, so that is not so intimidating now, i know what I need to do, and how and where to get done...however, it is the officialness of it that makes me nervous...i want my artwork to sell, i want people to enjoy it, but I do not want selling to become the point of my artwork...and then what if I go through all the trouble to set this all up properly, and nothing ever happens? I make no money, and I look like an idiot.

at this moment, expenditures so far outwiegh profits that it is not a worry, but I would like that to change in the future, I think i am just a little scared...but I cannot quite define why, just that it changes my relationship to what I love, and it makes me nervous

this is the kind of thing i would normally know, but not this time, i was just aking some alka seltzer cold, the dissolving tablets, and i completely forgot about it, so now i am drinking it, all the fizz is long gone, but I am sure the medicine is still going to be reasonably effective, how much does the fizz part matter? does anyone have any ideas?

I had a fantastic night, my show went so well, and i had so many people there for me, I was on cloud nine...thank you to everyone....i would have enjoyed the gallery, and the attention, but to have my nearest and dearest there to share it with me, i thought I would just explode i was so happy...i didnt get to spend near enoguht time with anyone, but I hope ya'll had half the fun i did? and Nancy, if I did not properly thank you for my flowers, thank you, they are now in this beautiful milk glass vase that my Gram gave me, and they look so striking...if I were not so sleepy I would take a picture of it, I will have to do that tomorrow.

Did I mention that I am still on cloud nine???

Art of the Shrine

I actually got the gallery, i am going to be a regular consigner there, and the first show i will participate in is this one:

February Show
First Friday
February 6, 2009
5 - 8 pm

Show Runs
February 4-19

Throughout history, shrines have been built, carved, painted, and assembled as a way to express spirituality, honor a loved one or public figure, or create a quiet space for meditation or prayer.

Our featured artists are Francisco Bussetti - a mixed media and mosaic artist, and Monica Francisco DeKam whose vivid acrylic work takes you to a variety of emotional spaces.





7400 Montgomery Blvd NE
Suite 20
Albuquerque, NM 87109
505-999-1280

It actually looks like at least one of my canvases will be put in the display window in front of the gallery, I cannot even tell ya'll how excited i am about it...and they told me to invite as many of my friends and family as i wanted, so I am doing so!!!




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there maybe hopefully will be a gallery in my near future, possibly as part of a one month themed show, of that I am almost (kicks chicken out of way) positive..possibly as a permanent member...I think the interview went well, my artwork was well received, although my lack of framing was a point off, i just told them honestly if they decide they want some of the unframed stuff I can frame it, but i refuse to go through the expense and the extra issue of storage if not needed...i think i won points for honesty, if nothing else...when i left, they were talking about placement, they dont talk about placement if they have not decided something, do they? I was told they will have a decision sometime this weekend.

for the moment, i am not going to name the gallery, i still feel a bit jinx-ish.

I just took in, and had accepted a bunch of prints at Bipolar store in coronado mall...I am hoping that they sell and that this will be the beginning of an ongoing retail relationship, i am so very very happy right now...and on that note, any of ya'll that are in abq, should go check tham out, buy my stuff, buy someone elses stuff, just buy, i want to keep this place open!!!!
did I mention that everything they carry is locally made? it is a nifty little store that is everything the mall usually isnt, and it is conveniently place near an exit, so you dont even have to walk through the whole mall to get to it, its right by fudruckers, if you are one of my many mall-o-phobes i recommend waiting til after christmas!

Today terry was forced to leave the hospital because he has successfully completed his physical therapy and should now be able to take care of himself, unfortunately they forgot to note that he is still insane, and really, not feeling at the top of his form physically. Tony was lucky enough to find him a care facility that caters to the mentally ill, unfortunately, Terry does not like the metally ill, he was really enjoying the old people in the long term illness program, where he has spent the last month or so. His preference when leaving was that he would commit himself at a favored institution, however the medicade (or medicare, i forget) laws have changed, and you can no longer commit yourself unless you prove to be a danger, so unless you try to kill yourself or someone else, you cannot voluntarily commit yourself, keeping in mind that terry is on ssi for 'manic depression, schizophrenia, and paranoid tendencies' so there is no question that he is not right, and would commit himself just for the heck of it.
yes, indeed, our health care system is broken, to say the least, and for the people that most need it.

Today i decided to pick up a newspaper, mainly in hopes of finding a coupon for micheals, i often wonder how much money i really save if i have to buy a paper to get the damn coupon, but that is beside the point.
I noticed that the front page was some doctor that was up for sexual misconduct with his patients...and that was only the beginning...the face looked somewhat familiar, but I did not really pay any attention, just thought, eww, that sucks for someone, and looked for my coupons.
My Mom later handed me the article and said that i might want to read it, so i took a closer look at my physician, Dr P~ i had not recognized him from the little crappy picture, even though he was my Doc for about a good ten years, he is the one that helped me when i injured my back, and years later, identified that same injury as the source of my migraines (I was seeing a neurologist as well, but nothing helped, however, Dr P~ figured it out, it was not my head at all, but that stupid muscle in my back) In fact, with the exception of a few not exactly kosher, but not excessively odd moments over the years, i would say that he is the best Dr I have ever had, and i am saddened to find out that he will obviously not be practicing medicine any longer, and sadder still to hear that he let his personal issues interfere with his patient care...and yes, a little bit disturbed about the whole thing...there were a few times that i thought, well, i thought that i was over thinking, that is what i thought, because surely, he did not mean to do that, or that, it would be stupid, especially for a DR, well, I guess that i was the stupid one, for not paying attention to my intuition, but yet, still, he was a damn good Dr~. Conflicting emotions anyone? I would still see him, just not for any yearly exams. So whos the sick one?

Today was spent with some of my favorite people watching them fall apart and put each other back together. Aaron was such a beautiful amazing person, and the people surrounding him are the same. I was struck once again by the friends that i have been lucky enough to not only find but somehow keep through so many years and the strength and the support that they brought to this occassion...death is never easy, but with the love and support of such amazing people, it can be made tolerable...I want to say to everyone there, and those that could not be with us for Aaron's memorial, that the family thanks you for making it such a beautiful and amazing evening, and for the love that everyone showed, i cannot think of a better way to honor Aarons memory.

Most of you have already heard through Berney or the grapevine about his and Roxannes son, Aaron, he was in an accident last tuesday, his vespa was hit by an SUV, he was in the hospital for a week, but, there was to much damage, and he was braindead, they removed him from lifesupport on monday...no one should ever have to make a decision like that for their child, it is not the way things are meant to be, your children should make that decision for you.
For those of you that have met Aaron, you know he was an amazing musician, quite shy, but occassionally, he would start talking, and that boy was so freaking smart, and just a damn good soul. I know that he is at peace, his parents are hurting, and the people that loved him, but he is at peace.
I know alot of you know Berney and Roxanne and were acquianted with Aaron, and i hate to say this, as much as i know everyone wants to support them when they are in need, the space that the memorial will be held in is very small, and they are worried that people will be turned away, so if you want to say goodbye to Aaron, email me at nlh20021@juno.com, and i will send you the info, but if you just want to show your love and support for Roxanne and Berney, cards and texts are greatly appreciated, and there is a paypal account that has been opened in thier name to help offset their costs (another thing a parent should never have to think about is a childs burial cost) and I can send information for that as well...This is going to be a long road for both of them and for thier surviving son Trevor, and they will need the love and support of all thier friends for a long time to come, it is not going to be over for them after the service, so if you cannot get in touch with them this week, do it next, believe me, it will be no less appreciated.

*hugs*
much love to everyone that is grieving tonight, a burden shared is less heavy, but it is no less of a burden.

N

COMMENT HERE AND I WILL:

a) Tell you why I friended you.

b) Associate you with something -- a fandom, song, color, photo, etc.

c) Tell you something I like about you.

d) Tell you a memory I have of you.

e) Ask you something I've wanted to know about you

f) Tell you my favorite userpic from your list

g) In return, you need to post this on your own journal

Right now i notice that so many people on my f-list are going through so many difficult times, and i want so much to let everyone know that I am thinking about them, and that my thoughts are there even when you see nothing on the screen, I just have not had the brain power left at the end of the day to formulate any thoughts that are worth giving to anyone, but love and support, you all have that from me, or i would not have you added on here.

In a very small effort to explain why my head is not working...mom is doing Ok, but having a rough time lately, so extra energy there, the fair is going on, which means that our workers are spread thinnner than usual, and i have not had a day off since last month, and yesterday we had terry (my brother) put into the hospital, although we had to use a police escort, it was all quite well done, and the cops knew him from his tendency to walk about the streets randomly, and even they were shocked by how much wieght he has lost, and agreed wholeheartedly with my and Tonys decision to take him in for care...the question is how to keep him there, he cannot be kept against his will..did I mention that he is almost two weeks into the forty day fast that jesus commanded him to undertake if he still wants him to be his friend? legalities aside, he needs to be in a hospital, at least until his body is healthy, or something that passess for healthy, or something, yup, still do not have a mind to post with.

It has been called to my attention that i have been rather negligent about posting...strangely, while life is not exciting at the moment, is is going along pretty well, there has just been nothing in recent memeory that has made me happy enough or sad enough to post about, honestly, i blame it all on my job. I am still working retail, at the mall no less, but it is such a low stress environment, and i feel as if i have a solid foundation under my feet, that even the big stuff in life does not seem so perturbing...when i was at at Langells, every day was such a roller coaster, wlking about on eggshells and never knowing when it was all going to blow up, that i had nothing left when i came home for dealing with real life, now my job is my job and my life is my life, and they are both going pretty dang decently. we did get a little bad news at Moms last Dr appt, but it was not a suprise at all, she has the beginning stages of emphasema, she is now on oxygen in the evenings, and eventually it may be more than that, but for now, it is controllable, and we are dealing with it, two years ago, this would have put me over the top, i would just not have been able to handle it, now i cannot say that i am at all happy about it, but i can deal with it, I ave the emotional space left in myself to figure out what to do and what the next step is, and me and mom are doing pretty well.
so hows that for an update?
I should add, I try hard not to post about my puppies, i am afraid of becoming one of those horrid my pup did this and it was so cute people...but my pups are so cute, and they do such wonderful things, and they make me so damn happy, and they make it so nice to come home, i forgot what it was like to have a real non vivarium pet in the house. That said, my Pups are now learning mind control, they seem to be able to get me to do whatever they want, walks at midnight, sure, treats, sure, go outside and bark for no reason, come back in and ask to be let out again in the space of two minutes, sure, why not, i have completely sacrificed reason for those two little mutts, i even bought sod last week, do i think i can afford to water it, no, but thats okay, the pups love it.

I am sure that many have read or heard about the shooting at a tennessee unitarian church, I have not been able to honestly consume the information about it because it just makes me heart-sick. I honestly do feel that there is a certain amount of respect owed to any religious establishment regardless of your belief system, i may not attend any particular church, but I would never desecrate one, and this act goes so far beyond desecration that it is incomprehensible, and to tell the truth, i dont care who you believe in, what precepts you believe in, some things are so much a part of the core of humanity that they are not to be denied, and a person should always be safe in their house of worship, period.

Last night I started reading lj in a pretty nasty mindset... you know that background music of bubbling revenge that often plays when you have no way of making something better, or changing something, so it just tears through your mind and your stomach until you would like to walk out of your house, bludgeon the first poor soul to look at you funny, and then take a nap until you can forget that you just propagated the same horribleness that you are so upset about....that sort of mindset.

and then I ran across a friends journal entry that spoke to my heart and reminded me that even though i can do nothing about events that have already happened, i can control my reaction to them in some degree, and maybe that is the best way to prevent them happening again...so i give you a very small sample of those words, from fairgoldberry, in the hopes that if anyone else reading this is feeling angry and as conflicted as I am, this will help them too..

"They suffered because they refused to embrace hate and fear, because they refused to close their hearts and minds and doors to people like me, because they walked together at the intersection of many paths instead of demanding adherence to One True Way.

This is far more personal than I really anticipated, has affected me more deeply than I thought it would. In essence, it comes down to the fact that people who stood up for me and mine have been harmed because of the values that made them do so.

In response, I find myself driven yet harder to remember compassion, to refuse hate, to reject fear. If they died for the love in their hearts, may the love in mine burn more fiercely to honor their passing."


Thank you so much for reminding me that to return hatred is to encourage it over and over again, I do not want to be this person, and in my anger, i can see myself becoming just that...thank you fairgoldberry for reminding me who I want to be, even in the face of tragedy.

Here's how the meme works:
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you 5 questions of a very personal nature.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them 5 questions.


here were my questions,

1) Where are you working, what are you doing, and are you enjoying it?

2) You must go back to school and work to get your doctorate in something that you haven't previously specialized in. What do you go back for and why?

3) You have been given a free one month trip to anywhere in the world (barring the following exceptions) and work is obligated to let you go and take you right back, your landlord is obligated not to charge rent, and your expenses are paid within reason. The exceptions are: You may not travel to any major cities (such as New York, Paris, London, Amsterdam, DC...)

4) Is there something that consistently moves you? A work of art or a piece of music... something from nature- what is it and why does it move you?

5) You have a lovely LJ Username. How did it come about?

and here my answers
I am still working retail, which i have a love hate relationship with, but i have an absolutely fantastic boss which makes a huge difference...the one thing I did not expect was to find myself oncwe again working in a mall at after thirty, it feels like a step back from langells, but really, it is so nice to be treated well at a job, i am in no hurry to look for my next.

I would go back for a dual degree in counseling and nutrition, I believe that alot of the mental and physical fatigue people experience is from lack of nutrition, and also from an amazing amount of unsettled issues we all tend to carry about...i would like to do something about that, but I would have to get a little studying in first.

that would be so difficult, I would love to go to Illinois to meet my little cousins, the whole bunch was born on my birthday, all four of them, and I have seen pictures aplenty, believe me, but it would be nice to meet them, also, there is a little town in CA that has a half sister of mine that I would love to meet as well, I would probably do one of the two, it would be hard to decide which though.

Color is what moves me, I love it, in clothing, in the landscape around me, in hair dye, in paint, even in rocks that I tend to pick up and bring home for no reason other than that they look nifty...that is probably the main reason i am an artist, i love color.

The funny thigs is, i cannot remember the name I first wanted, or the third, or the hundreth, but it took me about half an hour to come up with a name that lj did not reject (being I had no original ideas) so i finally started using random descriptives that I liked, and finally hit on one that lj would accept, now I love it so much I have considered using it as a studio name if I ever do anything with my artwork.

I just saw this post from an lj friend, (agonybliss to be specific, any of you who have seen my blue haired girl painting she is the original photographer, and an amazing talent...I cannot even say enough) and I thought that I would toss it on here before I go write my letters, I know there are a few of you that are on my friends list that do not indulge in any art, but most of you have some art form that is near and dear to you, and I think it is worth a few minutes to prevent this stupid thing from going through


agonyblissFROM THE ILLUSTRATORS’ PARTNERSHIP

Take Action: Don’t Let Congress Orphan Your Work

THE ORPHAN WORKS BILL IS BACK.

And this time the wheels have been greased for quick passage.

Yesterday a revived Orphan Works Bill sailed through a House panel. Today the Senate bill will be marked up. These bills will expose any work of art to commercial infringement. This will include everything from professional paintings to personal photos placed on the net.

The bills will coerce you to register your work with for-profit registries as a condition of protecting your copyrights. Any unregistered pictures will be subject to Orphan Works infringement. This is a radical departure from international copyright law and normal business practice.

If you wish to oppose this legislation, you must act now. We’ve set up an online site for anyone to e-mail their Senators and Representatives with one click. This site is open to professional artists, photographers and any member of the image-making public.

We’ve provided sample letters from individuals representing different sectors of the visual arts. Illustrators, photographers, fine artists, reps, licensing firms, designers:

If you’re opposed to the Orphan Works act, this site is yours to use.

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Pick a sample letter or write your own. Type in your zip code. Your letter will be automatically addressed to your congressman and senators. Click and send.

For more information about the Orphan Works Act of 2008:

IPA Statement to House Subcommittee March 20, 2008:

http://www.illustratorspartnership.org/01_topics/article.php?searchterm=00261

IPA Senate Mark-up Comments April 30, 2008:

http://www.illustratorspartnership.org/ow_docs

Geneva/ May 7, 2008 Orphan Works Bill Catches Global Attention/ Intellectual Property Watch: http://www.ip-watch.org/weblog/index.php?p=1028

MP3 Interview: http://www.sellyourtvconceptnow.com/orphan.html

YouTube: http://youtube.com/watch?v=CqBZd0cP5Yc

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